“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed-or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:41-42) Yesterday, I applied the delete function to my to do list. I went through and deleted items I hadn’t actually done yet, only leaving behind what was absolutely essential. Why? Because if I’m honest, although I have the desire and heart […]
Rest. It’s Better than Coffee.
Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!” He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and waves, and it was completely calm. (Matthew 8:23-26) In our culture of “go, go, go” […]
Letting Go of Self-Improvement and Embracing Freedom
And now what the law code asked for, but we couldn’t deliver is accomplished as we, instead of redoubling our own efforts, simply embrace what the Spirit is doing in us. Those who think they can do it on their own end up obsessed with measuring their own moral muscle but never get around to exercising it in real life. Those who trust Gods action in them find that God’s Spirit is in them-living breathing God! (Rom. […]
Bursts of New (Don’t Miss it)
Have you ever gotten caught up in a season of life where you feel like nothing ever changes? Have you ever felt disappointed due to thoughts that you should be somewhere different or doing something different than you are right now? Have you ever felt shameful of your progress, wondering why you haven’t achieved more, healed more, etc.? I think we have all been there at one point or another. This week I have been mediating on this […]
Thoughts on Anxiety and Control
Recently, I wrote a creative piece entitled Letting Go of Control and Splashing into Life. This piece was birthed out of a recent experience I had, during which I felt the Lord speaking to me about the role control has played in my life. This was not a new theme for me, as I have dealt with “control freak” tendencies over the span of my life. However, it did uncover a new layer of a familiar subject and brought […]
Letting Go of Control and Splashing into Life
I stand at the precipice of all that’s comfortable and familiar. Around me are trees that tower over me. They create shade that block out discomfort. Through their leaves and branches, I can still see glimpses of light streaming through. The shade keeps me from experiencing the full strength of the sun and keeps everything around me shrouded just enough that I can hide away in my comfort zone. As I stare out over the edge of the cliff, […]
Soar
With a clear purpose and destination in mind, I continue my journey. As I travel, the way becomes unclear. Before me is dense fog and confusion enters my mind. The thought, “You are lost. You’re too far gone,” causes fear to spring up into my heart. Still, I hear a gentle whisper declare, “This is the way. Walk in it.” I take another step. Peace washes over me and a bit more of the path comes into view. As I walk, I encounter noise […]
Give Me a Break
I have just returned from a much-needed vacation with my husband. Some breaks feel like a luxury and are nice to have. Others are badly needed. This break belonged in the second category for me. This season finds me in the last year of my grad program, the first semester of an off-site internship, and various other responsibilities and opportunities. It’s a truly good season, albeit a busy and stressful one. In this season, I am learning about my limitations. I […]
A Note from my Diary: Anxiety, Letting Go, and the Beautiful Mess in between
It’s the letting go I need to work on. Let go. Relax. Rest. Trust. Embrace. Be embraced. Let go of all that feels jumbled, messy, confusing, disorganized, consuming, And learn to really trust and believe that He holds it all. Trust Him that He writes and re-writes my story. Trust that I won’t be lost in the letting go. I will be found & free. Found & free in the letting go. Focus less on […]
Embracing Rest
At the start of this year, as I began to read through Genesis, I came upon these familiar words, “By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day, he rested from all his work. Then God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done” (Gen. 2:2-3). I started to think about the idea of sabbath. In the […]